New Boy broke things off with me, citing that he needs to focus on his career. Yes, he did this just days after telling me that he prioritizes love/relationships above all else.
I’m bummed, but can’t really bring myself to care that much. If he’d done this the day after I saw him last, I’d be devastated, but the fact of the matter is I need pretty frequent contact with someone in order to maintain my feelings for them and with this boy I’m at a point where I can’t even remember him clearly.
I wonder if his”I need to buckle down and focus on work” thing is just a front and really he’s just gone off me, or is doing one of those “I’m about to get a thing I want and it scares me so it’s time to run away” things? I guess I’ll never know. Or I’ll stalk his Fetlife profile a week from now and see that he’s posted a dozen more personal ads or entered a relationship wih someone else.
In other news, I’m sending the cats to stay with The Dandy until I can secure a new apartment. The harpy downstairs has been losing her shit every time she hears Dickface the Kitten running around and it’s stressing me out to a point where I’ve been crating her for 12 hrs a day and having a panic attack every time she jumps down from the couch or looks like she might want to play. I can’t live like this.
So the cats are going to a place where they can live normally and I’ll be able to stay here and prepare to move out with hopefully less anxiety etc.
I was originally not going to give notice here until I found a place but I think I will in fact give notice and if I can’t find a place in time, I’ll couch-surf. I can’t be here anymore.
The Dandy has agreed to act as a guarantor for me (if the place I just applied to rejects me) so hopefully that will get me into a new place faster. If it doesn’t I don’t know what on earth I’ll do.