Porn is hard.

It’s just one thing after another with this foot porn.

First off, Dickface the Kitten can’t stand to be shut out of a room, which makes the filming process difficult. I’ve tried distracting or containing her in various ways, or only trying to film when she’s asleep, but with mixed success.

Secondly, I have had to halt filming entirely for the time being because Dickface was running around the house like a maniac and rebounded off my foot with her claws out…twice. So I have big gouges on my moneymakers. And shortly after that my left shoe rubbed a hole in my toe somehow. So yeah…taking a filming hiatus til I’m pretty again.

As for the other steps on the road to uploading, I downloaded a conversion tool to turn my .MOVs into MP4s, and downloaded some free editing software, too. Got most of my clips converted (and learned some tricks to make ’em smaller without quality loss, too). But then my fucking laptop died.

My other laptop, the Macbook Air, has been presumed dead since August but the last time I went to fire it up…it worked. I’m typing on it right now. I never deleted the clips from the iPhone I filmed them on, so I uploaded them to the Mac. Discovered that the Mac has built-in movie editing software. Can’t figure out how to use it. Went to YouTube to look for tutorials but YouTube won’t play videos on this machine for some reason (need to update my browser or something I think).

So that’s where I’m at now.

I really *like* filming these clips (when I can be assured that there won’t be cats howling outside the door). I’m hoping if I throw myself into it hard enough I can maybe make decent money at it so I don’t have to model so much (I love modelling but the amount I have to do to make a living puts a lot of wear and tear on my body). I’m willing to work at this. WIth my art-selling attempts I’ve failed big-time at doing social media – because depression but also because I haven’t found an audience for what I do, really, and it’s hard to imagine I ever will. With the porn I guess I have more confidence that I can find people who are into what I do. I’m gonna set up a seximafied Twitter account sometime soon, I think, and try to post on it every day or two.

Mine likes the idea of filming clips with me, and is perfectly fine to show his genitals or asshole or even his face in them. He has great ideas and takes direction well and…well, it’s a big decision and I’m not gonna dive into it just yet but I’m sorely tempted to go ahead and show *my* face in clips, too. To film clips that are not just of him doing stuff to my feet, but of me doing D/s and S/M scenes in general. I’ve always said that I could make better BDSM porn than most of the shit I’ve seen out there, and the chemistry Mine and I have is amazing – I kind of want to show it off. I bet I could get men and women watching! And TBH I really don’t want to make a living at a “normal” job ever again so if I’m outed I’m not sure I’d care. I’m also not sure it would matter if one of my art-modelling people stumbled over my clips4sale store and figured out it was me – I show more in class than I would in my clips (I’m..weird about being sexualized. If someone wants to jerk off to my feet or my voice or to the sight of me torturing Mine with clothespins that’s fine, but I kind of don’t want to be naked in any of the things I film. I realize this may limit my audience. I don’t care. And I also think I may very well build a following, anyway. Julia Roberts has never been naked in any of her movies and people still pay to see her and think she’s hot. Just sayin’.)

My antidepressant meds have stopped working (as they always do, eventually) so the doctor upped my dose. Not sure if it’s having an effect yet. Today I feel like I’m coming out of the fog but this may be due to us having had warmish, spring-y weather lately. At any rate I might have a bit more energy and motivation right now than I’ve had in a while and I hope to use it to clean the apartment. It’s become a cluttered shithole again. Ideally I’d like to get suuuuper organized with my porn stuff so I can easily convert the bedroom or bathroom into a studio – get my lingerie organized into one drawer, stack the blankets/fabric/vinyl I use for backdrops neatly in one place, have a shelf in the kitchen specifically for food I’ll be stepping on, etc. Right now every time I wanna film something I need to shovel a bunch of clothes off the floor, sweep, dig around for the various accoutrements I need…it’s inefficient. I wanna be a porn POWERHOUSE.

Now if only I could figure out the editing part. 😛

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