Texted with The Bunny a bit about the whole orgasm control mishap. He agreed that he feels too “fiercely independent” to do anything so 24/7, and said he feels he’s more of a bottom than a sub per se. I asked if maybe he only likes giving up control when he’s horny (because during sexytimes I do totally call the shots and he responds wonderfully) and he said that seemed feasible.
He seemed like he was…I dunno…feeling a need to justify himself, or something? So I assured him that it’s perfectly fine that he’s not into orgasm control – I’m not angry about that. I am a bit angry that he agreed to do a thing but then didn’t do it; he gave me expectations of him but then let me down. But I added that I get that he probably meant to do what I asked and just didn’t realize the dynamic wouldn’t sit right with him. I said this was a learning experience, and that my annoyance will fade.
The Bunny said that he definitely didn’t like being told when to jerk off, but that the flip side of orgasm control – just not being allowed to come at all – was still kind of appealing to him. He likes the idea of being milked, too. So it seems like there’s still possibly some fun stuff to explore here.
But not right now. This has all been too fucking exhausting. I’m gonna stick with the stuff I know works for a little while before venturing outside the lines again.