Apparently I’ve become attached enough to The Bunny to fear his disappearance.
I was mostly okay up until recently. I guess I figured he was cute and fun but if he did a fade I’d be fine. Either that or he was never out of touch long enough for me to feel insecure.
Lately, I no longer wake up to find a text message waiting for me from him. This makes me antsy; it makes me wonder whether he’s talking to someone else who’s taking up his time. I think what it is, though, is that he’s figured out I usually sleep til noon and doesn’t want to contact me unless he figures I’ll contact him back soon.
This theory seems to be borne out: this morning I woke up uncharacteristically early and made a few posts in the FetLife discussion groups, and The Bunny (who seems to check FetLife constantly and track everything I do there) began his daily volley of texts soon after.
Part of the problem (as with The Pedant) is that I don’t know whether we’re dating or FWB or what. I’m fine with either designation, but I think dudes bail out of FWB situations more easily than dating-type arrangements. And The Bunny – although his profile says he’s “not sure about monogamy right now but you never know” – does not consider himself poly per se, which translates, to me, to a more tenuous situation. Like if he meets someone he likes a lot and she pressures him for exclusivity he’s more likely to cave.
Meh. I have a craft fair to get ready for. Must stop angsting. Everything’s probably fine.