So much for backing off and giving The Pedant some space. I saw that I’ve got a little block of time off coming up in a couple of weeks and I figured maybe that would be enough advance notice for The Pedant to plan to see me. He acts as though he never knows what his schedule will be, which means maybe they only come up with the schedule at the last minute, which means if The Pedant wants to see me on a certain day, perhaps he can specifically request not to be scheduled.
I emailed him:
My schedule is slammed with modelling jobs (and a craft fair, and preparations for an art show), but I”m miraculously not working on October 4, 5, or 6 – my longest stretch of continuous free time until November. If you’re able to come over during that window, hit me up.
Within minutes, he emailed me back:
I’m scheduled to work on all three of those days. 😦
To which I replied:
You know your schedule that far ahead of time? I did not realize that. You’re always so nebulous in the way you talk about it that I thought they sent it to you by carrier pigeon at the beginning of each week or something.
…And then, after hitting send, I whipped off another message out of frustration:
Is there a time when you ARE free and I can check my calendar to see what’s up on my end?
My thinking here is that he’s been on the job for five weeks now; apparently he knows his schedule a few weeks in advance; which means he could pick a time to see me that’s, like, seven weeks into the job. Surely he’d be past the initial “growing pains” of the training stage and ready to hang out by then, right? Or if he’s not, at least he has a chance to tell me so; to actually say “this job is fucking me up so much that for the time being I need all my days off to myself.”
And of course he hasn’t responded to any of that. And I’m absolutely certain that if he does respond, it’ll be with some vague bullshit excuse. Not an offer of a different day and not an explanation of what the fuck is going on with him.
I can’t even with this. I just can’t even. While I have no concrete reason to think that The Pedant is purposely avoiding me, his actions look kind of like that on the surface and my anxiety can’t take it. I’m this close to just snapping and being like “Look, I need more transparency from you. If you don’t want to see me – if you’re not into me anymore or whatever – just fucking say so. If you do still want to see me, then make a proper effort to do so or tell me outright what’s stopping you. Because I can’t take any more of your vague statements about your schedule being up in the air but maybe you’ll let me know next week and blah blah blah.”