Been missing The Pedant’s sex lately so I sent him a text message telling him what I’m currently daydreaming about doing to him. He just responded with “Purrr,” which is perfectly acceptable to me.
I do wish he’d tell me he daydreams about me, though. I don’t want to actually tell him to respond to my sexts in kind, because I don’t want my hot little missives to him to feel like a grim obligation to say stuff back. And some people are just not naturally inclined toward dirty-talk anyway so I wouldn’t want to try to force it.
But yeah, it does kinda bug me that I’ll tell him all these sexy things I’m thinking about him and he never, ever indicates he has thoughts like that about me.
So I just straight-up texted him asking “Do you think about me when you jerk off?”
I said this pretty soon after his “Purrr” so in theory he’s probably still near his phone/available to send texts/etc. But he’s been silent a while. The paranoid part of my brain thinks he’s recoiling from how blunt the question was, coming on the heels of my admittedly fabulous and nuanced sexytalk. The logical part of my brain reminds me that he’s Aspie and doesn’t seem to notice bluntness or awkwardness.
Oh, wait – he just replied. He said: “Yup.” D’awwwww! Embarrassed laconic boy is embarrassed and laconic. That’s so fucking adorable I could die. And I’m glad he didn’t qualify his answer with a “sometimes” or some big rambling thing about how Men Don’t Ever Fantasize About Only One Person so I’d better not expect that of him.
And I know that his “yup” probably doesn’t mean every time or anything. But I’m gonna fantasize that it does because frankly, he’s the only one I ever think about. I have better sexual chemistry with The Pedant than I can remember having with anyone ever, so he’s the only one I fantasize about. It would be nice – though not strictly necessary, I suppose – if this were mutual.
I just typed back, “Good. :D”
At the exact same moment that I hit Enter, he sent “I assume that’s reciprocal.” D’awwwwww again. Sounds like my boy needs reassurance. I wonder why he thinks I sext him, if not because his hotness is on my mind?
I responded with “Very much yes.” Which is an understatement, really. The Pedant has no idea how much I want him. Literally no idea, I guess, if he actually had to ask whether I’ve gotten off to thoughts of him.
The hottest boys, to me, are the ones who don’t know they’re hot. I just wanna snuggle him to death right now. 😀