The Pedant says Pixie sent him multiple texts bragging about how our evening went.
It’s…it’s like she and I went on two completely different dates!
As much as that night was kind of torture for me, the fact remains that this is a woman who’s given me tingly feelings (which is rare) and who, it turns out, is actually interested in me (also rare, to the best of my knowledge). And she’s leaving for school in September so no matter how badly I fuck things up, it can’t get too weird.
I may give this another date or two. I know sometimes I’m a spaz at first and loosen up later on. This may be a time to apply benefit of the doubt.
But! I will make subsequent dates short and/or give us lots of stuff to do besides stare at each other across a table, and if there are makeouts I will start being bossypants about her touching me back and stuff. It’s entirely possible she’s just nervous, plus she knows I’m dominant so maybe she assumes I’ll tell her what to do. And I don’t mind telling partners what to do. So…yeah. It’s hilarious that I should be the one taking the lead in sexytimes when I have far less experience, but I think it could work – especially since part of my “taking the lead” would be instructing her to tell me what she likes.
Oh, I forgot to mention one thing about that ill-fated date: DRAG KINGS ARE AWESOME. Holy shit. Sexy swagger plus unusually large and expressive eyes (for a guy) equals RAWR. One of these dudes, I swear, looked like a thinner, wispier Jake Gyllenhall (and he was popular, too – chicks were running up on stage to give him lapdances and offer him money from their cleavage. Which he took with his mouth). Another dude was, facially, kind of a cross between David Bowie and Robert Palmer, and when he lip-synced his songs he’d come right up to you and make flirty eye contact (not all of the performers interacted like that). I felt my heart go pitter-pat in spite of myself.
I am having so many confusing feelings lately.
Experienced bii-chicks in the audience: how did you know you were bi? What was your first time with a woman like? Did you feel comfortable with her genitals immediately or was it weird at first? How did that sex compare to your first time with a guy?
Tell me stuff.