I forgot to mention – when Minx was over the other night, I showed him “men ups” (a set of male pin-ups someone did). Which got Minx thinking about the pin-ups I’ve done of him, I guess, because he shyly asked me if he could pose for me again sometime.
At the time, I said “Sure – I’m always happy to add more skinny, pretty boys to my roster.” And Minx does have a particular coquettish quality that can be hard to find in a guy (plus, y’know, DAT ASS).
But then I immediately remembered that I’d been trying to get him to pose for me when we were together and he kept brushing me off (which, to me, is tantamount to being turned down repeatedly for sex. Painting Minx was a way of me expressing my love and lust for him). For the last year or more of our relationship I’d tell intermittently tell him I had an idea for a painting and needed reference photos for it, and he’d irritably tell me it wasn’t a good time/he was too sore from work/etc. Bear in mind that a lot of the poses I had in mind were simple and unstrenuous and it takes five minutes or less to snap a damn picture. I wasn’t asking him to strap on a 50-pound Vegas showgirl headdress and swing upside-down from the chandelier for five hours or anything.
So when we were together, the idea of posing for sexy photos was this huge imposition*. But now…what? He’s missing the attention? He’s missing me, and trying to suck up to me by finally giving me something I’d been asking for for ages? He’s realizing that it’s actually pretty cool to have someone lovingly and painstakingly render your body on canvas – over and over again until their living room is like a shrine to your ass – and that he had thoroughly taken that for granted while we were living together?
Maybe someday when my feelings settle a bit I’ll be able to use Minx as a model again. Right now, though, I kinda want to go “Yeah…fuck you. Too little, too late.”
In the meantime I have The Doll as a willing model, and possibly The Latent Heterosexual and The Hedonist as well. SpankBoy would likely indulge me, too. Link, for sure, when he comes over in June. And there are tons of other guys out there who would find it an exciting novelty to be photographed and painted.
So…Minx may have missed the boat.
*This from a boy who spent 99.9% of his downtime either naked or in panties, by the way. He likes being naked. He likes wearing panties. He likes feeling sexy, and would frequently gyrate or strike a pose when he caught me looking. I don’t know why he stopped modelling for me, but I’m damn sure it wasn’t because the actual photo-taking was a huge deal.