The Doll just wrote me a brief but perfectly normal email saying yes to board games on Monday, as I was 90% sure he would. He didn’t reference my talk about breakup angst whatsoever, and I can’t help wondering why. The options that occur to me are:
1) The thought that I’m still processing the end of Minx freaks him out and he hopes if he ignores this it will go away,
2) It’s actually not a big deal at all to him, so there’s no point in him addressing it, or
3) He didn’t even notice that part of my message because he was skimming through it rather quickly.
Well, I’m sure this won’t be the last time I push him to arm’s length for a few days so I can deal with residual Minx feelings, so I’m bound to get a reaction from The Doll eventually.
On a separate note, I’d stopped commenting on people’s hot FetLife pics for a while, worrying that it might distress The Doll to see this on my feed, but fuck it – I want to be poly and acting like he’s the only boy in the world sets a bad precedent. So I’m back to “loving” and commenting on stuff, albeit in a somewhat more restrained fashion than before – I only say stuff to people that I’d be comfortable watching The Doll say to others. So, like, “This photo is adorably cheeky! You look like a pin-up girl” instead of “OMG DAT ASS!!!!!!! <drools>” (The Doll, as I have mentioned, “loves” pics on a regular basis, but always of people in head-to-toe latex – nothing too porny. And he only “loves,” he never seems to comment.)
And speaking of eye candy, I just forwarded The Doll a couple of links to photos he might enjoy, because I like doing nice things for boys I’m seeing and because I want The Doll to know I support his kinks even if I’m not willing to fulfill all of them (wearing head-to-toe latex sounds like disgusting sweaty hell to me).